Today.

This morning I'm having a flood of emotions. One of my dear friends has been battling several mental disorders, and I found out last night that she had an episode Tuesday night and is now at a local mental institution. I feel like this disease is slowly deteriorating a strong, independent-minded, beautiful woman. It's so unfair for her, to have to battle such a controlling disorder and with each episode it takes a little bit more of her. Right now, it's hard to feel optimistic because it is a roller coaster of a problem. You'll think she's pulling it back together and she's doing "good" and then it all falls apart instantly. I have adjusted to my "new" friend, because I know she will never be the same. She knows she'll never be the same. It's just hard to understand the disease. You think you've got it down, and then BAM it jumps to another level. It's hard to know how to help her because it's her disease, it's her mind betraying her. It scares me.

"Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled, and do not let them be afraid."     -John 14:27

-A